Catherine's Butterfly Brain

There is such joy in my heart, I am so blessed and truely manifesting "the Purpose of my Heart" or "el propósito del corazón" from my Chilean adventure:
To know, to love and to DANCE with God. His Holiness touched my heart and soul so deeply, I continue to travel along the path of awakening.

or from Simon & Garfunkel...

LIFE, I LOVE YOU!

Slow down, you move too fast.
You got to make the morning last.
Just kicking down the cobble stones.
Looking for fun and feelin’ groovy.
Hello lamppost,
What cha knowing?
I’ve come to watch your flowers growing.
Ain’t cha got no rhymes for me?
Doot-in’ doo-doo,
Feelin’ groovy.

Got no deeds to do,
No promises to keep.
I’m dappled and drowsy and ready to sleep.
Let the morning time drop all it’s petals on me.
Life, I love you,
All is groovy.


~Catherine of Cambridge

Though there are many words here from others - I am beginning to find a new level of my voice. I am learning to trust that voice and write of my own experiences.

From my writing exercises at a writing workshop this past Friday:

I really don’t have an identification of myself as a writer. I somehow undervalue the fact that I am eloquent and LOVE words, really love communicating ideas and emotion married (in the happily ever after sense which really doesn’t seem to exist except for rare occasions such as this).

I find words to be elegant, sometimes they come into my mind in ways I can only marvel at. A few mornings ago I was talking with Jo, we talk every morning for me to check in. She is my sponsor in my 12 step program. I was talking about something and the word perseverate came out of my mouth – we both laughed heartily…where did it come from and what does it mean?

From www.answers.com: Perseveration/The tendency to continue or repeat an act or activity after the cessation of the original stimulus.
Well that’s interesting, breaking the cycle is to understand within myself the drive for expression. I have done this in many ways throughout my life. With art, in my teaching, in my coaching, training and consulting life, in the design and implementation of countless workshops, sessions, etc.

I recently had the thought, “what if despite all the reasons not to write, I just decided that this is my path. God almighty, I have enough books to start my own Library of Congress and am usually glued to information seeking.

~Catherine of Cambridge

2004

My religion consists of a humble admiration of the illimitable superior spirit who reveals himself in the slight details we are able to perceive with our frail and feeble mind. ~Albert Einstein

“The true basis of religion is not belief, but intuitive experience. Intuition is the soul’s power of knowing God. To know what religion is really all about, one must know God.”
— Paramhansa Yogananda from The Essence of Self-Realization

Wild Geese

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting--
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

~Mary Oliver

Youth is like spring, an over praised season more remarkable for biting winds than genial breezes. Autumn is the mellower season, and what we lose in flowers we more than gain in fruits. ~Samuel Butler

"Is it possible to be responsible for the whole of mankind, and therefore responsible for nature? That is, is it possible to answer adequately, totally to your children, to your neighbour, for all the movement that man has created in his endeavour to live rightly. And to feel that immense responsibility, not only intellectually, verbally, but very deeply, to be able to answer to the whole human struggle of pain, brutality, violence and despair? To respond totally to that, one must know what it means to love.

That word love has been so misused, so spoilt, so trodden upon, but we will have to use that word and give to it a totally different kind of meaning. To be able to answer to the whole there must be love. And to understand that quality, that compassion, that extraordinary sense of energy, which is not created by thought, we must understand suffering. When we use the word understand, it is not a verbal or intellectual communication of words, but the communication or communion that lies behind the word. We must understand and be able to go beyond suffering, otherwise we cannot possibly understand the responsibility for the whole, which is real love.

So, to understand this responsibility for the whole, and therefore that strange quality of love, one must go beyond suffering. What is suffering? Why do human beings suffer? This has been one of the great problems of life for millions of years. Apparently very few have gone beyond suffering, and they become either heroes or saviours, or some kind of neurotic leaders, and there they remain. But ordinary human beings like you and me never seem to go beyond it. We seem to be caught in it. And we are asking now whether it is possible for you to be really free of suffering."

~ Krishnamurti

The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.
~Allan K. Chalmers

and

I have learned two lessons in my life: first, there are no sufficient literary, psychological, or historial answers to human tragedy, only moral ones. Second, just as despair can come to one another only from other human beings, hope, too, can be given to one only by other human beings.
~Elie Wiesel